Fitting In 1

HEAVEN

Isn't that the place we all strive to end up?
How come we find it difficult to do what it takes to get there?
Why do we let the so called "trends" "lifestyle"
"what's in vogue" "fitting in" take over what's important?

Why do we worry so much about fitting in?
Why have we made life harder than it ought to be?
Everyone's becoming a doctor...
must you be one?
What if your path is different?

You've traveled thousands of miles
to seek greener pastures
but have you accomplished what you came here for
or you've lost the sense of who you are in the name of fitting in?

Have you let worldly desire take over
the heavenly fire that ought to be in you?

Everyone is a "bigz girlz"
You want to be one too
You want a house as big as Emeka's
A car as sweet as Toyin's
A bank account fatter than Big momma
Perhaps you've had to omit some birth names
in order to let your numerous degrees fit into the forms...

Sure, we all want the best fruits life has to offer
but did you know toyin started off at burger king?
I bet you didn't know Emeka was born with a silver spoon.

Why are we forcing ourselves to be like others?
Why do we fail to appreciate
what we've accomplished?
Why do we see the good in others
but fail to see the great in us?

If you've been striving hard to get there
Know that you will get there and even go higher
if it's God's will for you.
.......

So..so confused

Just two days ago,
I went to my aunt's place
You remember Master C?
I chilled with him and D don for a while.
When it was time for me to go to my evening class,
Master C told me I couldn't go that he had a gift for me
I'm like hmm what's it gonna be this time?
the shrek doll u got from Mickey D?
the kung fu panda toy u got from chuck e cheese?
or the transformers toy mama got you?

He just smiled and went upstairs
He heard me slam the door and he goes
"Aunty OLAMILDDDDDDD! I know you're not leaving
when I told you not to"
"I'm right here boo, I was just closing the door to prevent
the flies from coming in." I replied.
He came downstairs with his hands behind his back
He looked at me and said
" I know I give you a lot of trouble
but you've been good to me
and I thought I should give you this."

He handed me a book.
I looked at the title and it said Praying for purpose for women
a prayer experience that will change your life forever.
I didn't bother to ask him how he got it
I could not smile, I could not cry
I just didn't know how to react
I was astonished. I hugged him and left.
I raced to my car and I shook in fear.
I asked myself when was the last time I really prayed?
I use to be the one that prayed all the time

I use to be the one that talked to God
about everything
I mean everything... one time I asked God how come I don't have hips?
I said God why big thighs? why not hips? abi i no deserve figure 8...
that just gives u a clue about how I open up to God.

It dawned on me
I had gone through so much in the past couple of months
Instead of me to run to God and seek comfort, help
I run away from him
I go about singing praises to him
and helping others
when I'm the one who really needs help

I am an aspiring Law student (Corporate Law to be precise)
I have switched courses like crazy
WHY?
My dreams differ from that of my parents
and OLAMILD is supposed to do whatever they say
After all , many Nigerian parents use her as an example for their kid
She leads the church choir
She sings at weddings, birthdays, anniversaries
She's respectful
She's a yoruba lady and respect is the most important thing in the culture.
They told her to go to school to be a Pharmacist
She chose Law, which is her passion
She started off taking pharmacy pre-requisites but it just wasn't for her
In anytime they are going to find out
what she has done
and all hell will break loose.

The last thing I want is for people to change
their views about me
but I have to live for me.
That's what sparkle says
stop thinking about what people say
follow your heart.

`Just got out of an 8 yrs relationship
and God knows I need prayers.
I need it more than anything.
In the past couple of months,
I have written close to 5 songs that I have done nothing with
I just sing it in my head, in my car and just forget it.
I have been running away from what I need the most = PRAYERS

It's sad
but it's very encouraging
that God just used a 5 yr old (Yes, Master C is 5 now)
to tell me that he is still there
ready to help me.
All he asks is that I put my hand in his hands
and let him have his way.

PRAY 4 me pleaseeeeeeeee.....

Imagine Me

When the word 'Imagine Me' comes up, we all think of Kirk Franklin's song. That's very good but do you actually Imagine yourself in situations you never thought you'd be? You can't say Abroad has been what you thought it was going to be. You expected America to be paradise when you were leaving Nigeria but here you are in a country where you have a home and still have to pay to stay in (mortgage). If you're not working morning job, you're doing night. If you're not worrying about your rents, you're worrying about utility bills and so many other things. There is no peace anywhere. You call 9ja to check on your peeps and you're told that 'nike just died of cancer' or grandma is sick, bring some money. So little success with a lot of stress. I know some of us have problems that bug us 24/7. Thinking about it makes it worst than before. That's why I'm dedicating this song to you all. I know many have been in situations where they felt like they had nobody. I want you to Imagine GOD taking care of your needs, and problems. If you think you've seen worst, think about orphans, sicklers. think about people that are sleeping at the embassy for weeks just to get visa to come where you are today. If you've really had it and life has fallen apart for you. You have low self esteem. you think no one cares. You think you're unwanted and ugly. You say " Why should I try to do this or that? I'm not important after all"

Don't say you're not important, It simply isn't true. The fact that you were born, Is proof, God has a plan for you. The path may seem unclear right now, But one day you will see, That all that came before, Was truly meant to be. God wrote the book that is your life, that's all you need to know. Each day that you are living, Was written long ago....Imagine GOD doing what he does best- taking care of you.... I have lied, cheated,... I've also been cheated, betrayed, and lied to.. Imagine Me.. Imagine you being free in the sight of our maker.. he's the only one that sees and looks beyond your faults.

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